Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to my darling Jared,
Happy Birthday to you
I love you son.
I am sure we will meet some day, and I am looking forward to it.
Love, Daddy.
Sorry for not being able to celebrate your birthday with you on the actual day.
Did you hear us sing birthday songs to you? Did you eat the pasta mummy bought for you? Did you get our presents? We love you Jared. Happy birthday in advance! Guess what? Didi was asking, how could you eat the pasta? Would it disappear? How could we throw it to the sky?? He had lots of questions…but I believe you will be able to eat it from wherever you are. We love you son.
Years had gone by, darling, but I still miss you so much.
I am blessed to have didi and mei mei by my side, but still, I long for you to be here too.
I really hope I can be a blessed mummy of 3 children, all alive, all healthy, all safe and sound with me.
But I have no such luck.
Darling, 23rd dec is your birthday, but we are going batam to stay at your gong gong and ma ma’s house for a few days, so we will celebrate in advance today with you. Tomorrow is a busy day, so today will be a better date to celebrate your birthday.
We had already prepared all the things we wanted to give you…
You are 7 years old already darling. You will be in P2 next year, and didi will be in P1. Time flies…If I am lucky, I will have a P2 son, and P1 son.
I miss you darling, really. The pain in my heart never truely fades away. It stays, and I think it will be there forever.
Letting go is never easy. Hanging on to the memories is just a way to link up you with us.
We love you. Forever. How painful…my heart is still bleeding.
Sorry for not writing to you for so long, but that’s because Daddy had transferred this blog to blogspot, and in the end, there were some problems with posting.
Anyway, we decided to keep this blog.
How are you doing? Dash didi is going to P1 next year, and you are going to P2, wow, time flies. 
We are still thinking of you everyday. Your birthday is coming, anything you want me to buy for you?
I really hope you are able to celebrate your birthdays with us just like your didi and meimei.
We love you so much, dear.
Mummy been thinking a lot recently.
Anyway, what are you doing now, my little baby? Seeing those with 3 kids or more, I am full of envious. Cause I have 3 kids like them too. Just that you can’t be with us.
Till now, I still question, why? But questioning alone doesn’t help. The only thing I can think of is you have gone up to buddha first, so that you can ask buddha to allow daddy and mummy to be with you together when we are gone…
miss you boy, no matter where you are. I am sorry still, for not being able to protect you. 
Hello Son,
Where are you in heaven my boy? How does heaven looks like? How have you been doing?
Hope you are well, and be strong my boy. I love you my baby and always will.
Daddy.
Bad mummy! I forgot to say happy chinese new year to you!!!!!
this year is year of rabbit. hope you have a good year ahead!
whenever i look at my p1s this year, they reminded me of you, cause you are born the same year as them. If you are living, you may be sitting among them. I wonder what kind of student will you be? obedient? naughty? daydream? etc?
love you son.
Some insensitive people asked us to let go of you, to let you go in peace. But darling, how can we do that? They did not go through the pains of losing their children or love ones, easy for them to say so! Now I understand why some people chose to follow their love dead ones, cause the pains of losing was too unbearable.The pain of losing you was too great. Yes, even though you had left us, but you were borned and were with us for 2 days. You are still our born child. You are still our son. How can we forget you? How can we let go so easily? All the 5 months plus of excitements in preparing for your arrival, the storytelling and singing to you every night, the talking to you everyday, the buying of things for you, all these still stay in my mind. Darling, we want you to be happy at wherever you are, but still just let us celebrate your birthday with you every year, say good night to you every night, remember you in our heart forever, and love you with all our hearts. These are the only things we can do for you son. Do go safely, and happily wherever you want to go, but just remember you are forever our precious son.
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